- A. Zavarelli
- Release Date
- November 2019
Contemporary Romance, New Adult
They call him the devil.
When I crash-landed into him on my first day at Loyola Academy, I was sure that couldn't be true.
He was the most gorgeous man I'd ever seen in real life.
Little did I know he was also the cruelest.
I went from starstruck to stunned the moment his cynical eyes cut through me.
I can't tell you what it was that made him want to punish me. But from that day forward the brooding recluse of a man made it his goal to torment me.
I want to loathe him, and some days, I do.
But good or bad, nobody's attention has ever tasted so sweet.
What do you do when you have a hate crush on your bully?
Worse yet, what do you do when he's also your teacher?
Book Review by Pip (reviewer)
Jan 07, 2020 [ OFFICIAL REVIEW ]
23 people found the following review helpful
The bully-love-hate-teacher-forbidden mega trope romance is a not-so-secret catnip of mine, so HATE CRUSH seemed like a good idea at the time. And to be fair, I did have an idea of what this was going to be and there were no illusions (at least, not too many) about it turning out to be a sweet, salty thing with an easy, kissy ending.
Like the blurb suggests, Sebastian Carter has found a target in Stella LeClaire, the new girl who is only part of the elite and rich crowd because of the strings that her father has pulled in Loyola Academy. The affair they eventually fall into however, is one borne out of obsession, unhealthy dependency, abandonment issues and a way to work out a loss of direction and bitterness…the furthest thing from love, in my opinion.
This much I expected, even welcomed because I wanted to see how things would move from confused hate to lust to love as the story went on. A. Zavarelli did lay this out clearly enough, that this twisted relationship of theirs was anything but wholesome and that much, I was clear about.
What was hard to stomach though, were Sebastian Carter's extended periods of bullying, of breaking down, of constant humiliation and cruelty for the sake of teaching a bitter and hard lesson in life simply because life had been hard for him. Doling pain out in equal measure isn't surprising in terms of human behaviour I guess--people who have been hurt and cut deeply can and will do the same to others with a vindictiveness that is hard to witness, even in fiction--yet this happened to an extent where there was just too much of stomping down and very little building up and grovelling, which I needed to see in equal measure. One minute he's distant and aloof, ghosting her for months; the next scene he's back with a personality transplant and overly concerned and suddenly in love with her...really?!
In essence, the incredible masochistic streak I kept seeing couldn't and shouldn't simply have been mitigated only by a short period of remorse and lip service that was entirely disproportionate in righting all the wrongs that Sebastian committed, rendered even more ineffective by Stella's easy capitulation and an epilogue that briefly told about a difficult journey to get to where they were five years later.
And if the end point was to see a stronger, grittier Stella who could resist even Sebastian's cruelty, it actually felt as though it looked like she would have gotten there on her own, which suggested that his awful, nasty treatment of her was in fact, unwarranted. It'd served no transformative purpose as a result, and merely looked like an exercise in detailing reprehensible behaviour because neither could really get past their own issues to de-couple from their toxic relationship.
I'm leaving my rating as an arbitrary 3-starred one because of my own indecision regarding the subject matter and the narrative purpose it was supposed to serve, which I felt wasn't entirely fulfilled. HATE CRUSH didn't tread on my triggers because it was a bully sort of romance (it's something I can handle) but rather, infringed on my own personal sense of justice that demanded an equal amount of development and transition to a believable relationship I could buy into.
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